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i think it comes from my hoarding habits. i like the idea of not relying so much on the internet, and i have plenty of hard drive space on my computer. i have a huge collection of FLACs and books, which i'm very proud of, and hoarding hentai comes from that + my pseudo-coomer problem. yesterday i noticed the huge amount of loli and cub hentai that i had, and being 100% honest with you, i don't look at them at all, i never get horny out of nowhere; it's always when i looked at something online. i felt so fucking disgusting it was unreal.
sure i don't have the best habits, routines and stuff, but hentai is just tearing my life away. i'm not a serial masturbator, but i do it when i'm bored, which is bad. i should be doing anything but masturbating, since i don't have a good relationship with it. for example, i would 100% trade masturbating for gaming. it's still not a very productive thing, but the harm it does to you (depending on the game, of course, but i only play retro games) is infinitesimal compared to porn and hentai.
about the loli and cub stuff, i admit that i'm a pedophile (loli = children to me and i feel the same attraction towards actual children IRL), and i wanna isolate that desire as much as possible. it's completely unnatural, and i only started developing that corrupted lust because i gave in to loli hentai a couple years ago.
if you're reading this, i already deleted my hentai and porn collection. thank you for encouraging me to do this. it was basically wasted hard drive space that could be used to hoard better stuff/thing that i actually enjoy hoarding, like books, music, movies, documents, leaks, etc.
i'll also find a way to seed that stuff through I2P, since sharing with other people is also a big part of why i have these things saved locally.