I tried searching for another place to vent. I don't wanna go back. I don't wanna go back. I don't wanna go back.
everything is fucked. they're gonna continue conspiring against me. I'll have nothing to do. I'll slip back into old patterns. it's a trap. I'd be rather be trapped on my own terms.
there's no point. things would never have been any good. they can't be any good.