I am trapped. telling my therapist anything is a waste of time, same with psychiatrist. telling anyone anything is a waste of time. nobody ever listens.
now I'm afraid of leaving the room and running into them again. I've nobody I can go to who won't complain to the authorities. except you guys but you don't seem to listen either.
tbf I don't know what "listening" means. I don't know what I want from you, or anyone else. spending time together? maybe. other than that, nothing interests me
well there's one thing. I wanna belong (to a group). but that's such an abstract thing I don't know to belong¹. presumably belonging involves bonding over common interests. I have no interests
¹maybe there's something wrong with me, and I can't get the feeling of belonging no matter what I do