I didn't go. I feel asleep. I don't know if I would've gone otherwise. it would've been painful, but I'm a masochist.
I think they're avoiding me. I never run into them. in that case I wouldn't wanna make them uncomfortable by being there. can't handle the guilt of making someone's life difficult.
also one of my friends announced they're dating. so now all my friends are dating. I just wish I had a friend I could talk to without fear of repercussions. someone who liked spending time with me.
though to be fair I don't even like spending time with me, how could anyone else.