>>186
alright, I'll meditate for 5 minutes everyday. though I tried today it didn't help. and I'm reading The Buddha's Teachings. I don't think deathless happiness will happen to me
>>187
yeah I myself because I'm utterly unlikeable. that's other people's image. but how does that make difference?
>>188
you should've told me that earlier. anyway the point wasn't asking for help, it was finding someone who accepts, or at least tolerates, my horribleness
>>189
dude I can't do that all day. that's a once-per-week task at best. I don't have enough interests to keep me occupied the whole day everyday