my mom shot down the idea of emailing the year group. now I'm trapped. that was one way out I could think of, now there's no way out
this sucks I'm gonna go insane.
my mom is also against me killing myself. that fair enough it's expected
so basically she expects me to live in misery without bothering anyone
her suggestions for escaping include taking care of myself and stuff. so basically returning to perfectionism. tried that for years, it didn't help I wasn't happy there
there's no hope it's over