I can't exist in the same space as those who have stopped talking to me. with one of them I've made eye-contact multiple times and it's not scary anymore.
but with another it's literally piercing pain. even online, I keep deleting accounts after I see them in the suggested contacts list. like "fuck they're here, I can't be here, they don't like me, it's not safe"
maybe it's a matter of time. but this is a very tail-between-the-legs kinda existence