She lent me a book a long time ago and I thought that because of this, she had to see me again or lose the book. That' why I avoided her. Unfortunately I took LSD two days ago and it ruined my plan. I felt stupid and just gave her the book back. I got to see her again tonight with plenty of people. I managed to be not too boring and needy. All in all, I'm done with the tantrum. Maybe we'll meet again, may be not, life goes on.