I wrote some text this morning, day 4. However, I was unable to post (HTTP POST)
it and I am unsure whether I am banned or not.
Unfortunately my clipboard history was cleared all my thoughts as well. I'll try
to recreate some of them.
>>12
I think my "funny" text indeed was misleading. My concern was about experiencing
a stressful event that I do not wish to be part of, except that it is
obligatory. Your reply indeed interests me mainly because I wonder how one can
be so calm choosing to do things that calm them down over things that must be
done. How come you chose to read a book for example instead of studying more?
How is it possible that you chose to do such a thing without having inner
conflicts?
What bothers me as well, which is what my stress stems from, is how I despise
being forced to study as is the common case instead of simply risking my life
doing things I believe to be important. While what >>12 seems like risking a
day, would they be able their entire life to pursue what they think is right? I
simply cannot stand waiting for things I must do that I do not want to do in
order to, just maybe, achieve what I want to do later on in the future.
>>15
Well I've had 4 so far, one each day thus my daily posting. I thought it was a
good stress-relief to share it simply because I don't have much to do other than
waiting, might as well take some time to let it out. I apologize for becoming
too annoying at the end which probably explains the ban.
>>14
Indeed and that is what is making me too stressed. I feel like I'm wasting my
precious time but at the same time I cannot get myself to break the typical path
of a human being nowadays. I suppose I am, just like many, afraid of taking the
risks but at the same time unhappy with my current position.
Overall, today's exam was relatively fine. I like the subject and it feels
intuitive to me as well which helped tone the impatience and the stress.
I apologize for the spam, admin.