It is increasingly difficult to quit anonymous textboxes. I know whatever I put in this box doesn't matter. I know it won't mean anything nor do anything for me.
I just enjoy the illusion. The deception I'm looking for is a place in which I could contribute some cohesive thoughts. And I'm not wrapped up in bullshit.
I don't have to placate you with prerequisites we must maintain, such as "I enjoy working at this company" or "I enjoy your time" and "oh wow, that's REALLY interesting..." - I just don't have to explain anything at all frankly. There are no repercussions here.
But I'm just still such an idiot. It doesn't do anything for me other than scratch an itch that I should probably ignore or address the mold that I live in which cultivates the rashes all over my body to begin with
It is easy to criticize everything around you, but with how I spend my time, it is shameful to comment on anything at all. I deserve the platitudes and the placating because I've been too stupid to find a way out.