came back to update!
I've accepted the truth, and I've embraced the reality, I face life with courage: still sometimes I get coward for this value is new to me and I'm teaching it to myself. but overall I think I'm doing all right, I eat one meal a day, I fuck once a week, and I face the fear of suffering whenever I could. I believe in Courage and excellence, in life and suffering. women are like life, you need courage and balls to face it, they love a man with balls.
I'll try anon's diet advice.