maybe what i want is, something really good to know those sites and do something good with it cuz... i couldnt possibly come up with anything good. but so far, nothing. nothing big enough. nothing important. nothing that ll fit my speciality as usual. nothing that big. so all these has been for nothing. all these confusion... missing deadlines... not reading your fvorite idols" i started at X age" and then reading it and find out you are late and feels miserable.... nothing... just realizing how destroyed you are. like waiting for a god to come... and only a god. how shameless. putting me on this much of confusion, and then coming to me to say "ha you need me!". how quaint. let me do that to you and see how you deal with it.
im just slithering on the mud basically.