reading on whether the east or west is actually oppressive and never felt so estranged. rembering dad saying "ah it s all a lie" but im confused which is which since everyone looks oppresive and nobody is actually into democracy and freedom despite their news and word saying i guess (hence applying dad's word, both of them are to be taken reversed, naturally)
i cannot say shit anymore to avoid revealing too much of me, but i guess even i am invisible to the saints. poking on all my worse buttons.
gods are really just war crazed chimps, stuck in a fucking time capsule.