Maybe a man on Xanax doesn't even know what's real and what's not. That's something I have to keep in mind.
clean bright hell
How's hell bright and clean?
With withdrawal, reality (hell) suddenly become so crisp that your only thought is to kill yourself. It's 11. pm and I still couldn't find the energy to get out of bed. I've tried to meet some friends just to have a reason to go out but when you're in that state of mind, people can feel it and have to avoid you for their own sanity.