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Can you do anything about it? [...] more pleasant.
I'm not getting depressed about it and ruining myself over time. I did/do choose to improve myself over time as much as I can. I also asked for advice here and followed some and trying to follow rest of the tips I see helped me. I would say that that anyone *really* willing to fix this situation would choose to give it more time and energy even if it all feels useless and meaningless.
I picked a book in each subject I felt horribly bad at and following through some of them and giving them proper attention. For the things that I had stated I am average or good at e.g., programming, I found that questioning everything I know before I'm about to use it to be very useful, even if it's only just opening the Wikipedia page and reading about the concept e.g., What is testing? Why do I write tests in this particular way? This proved to be quite efficient too.
on the other considering a considerable portion of humanity lacks a second braincell [...] you are just bad or even mediocre.
I would you to elaborate this part please. Is it really enough? Is really satisfying to simply rely on the "fact" that a considerable portion of humanity lacks a second braincell? Why can't one be better if they so wish, even wish desperately? As far as I know, there isn't a strict rule limiting how you can know *assuming* you even know how much you want to know.
Even your statement, if you don't mind me saying this, is weak. Lacking a second braincell doesn't completely eliminate all your chances of mastering at least one thing. Being at bad stuff that you've got your vision on doesn't necessarily mean you cannot fix or you cannot find other things that you can actually be good at. Both are time consuming and are, I think, mutually exclusive for the most part. I know you said "or even medicore" which I do agree with, I think it's fine to be medicore at some things but shouldn't one be good at least one thing? Why isn't it possible for people, or rather why can't it be possible, to simply be good at at least one thing. Are some humans, such as myself in this case, only limited by mediocrity? How can you prove that?
Only the anime i am not sure about. [...]. Still it's perfectly OK.
I never implied any of this. I solely mentioned the fact that it would be best for one to have strong opinions about things they consume. Strong understanding of stories they choose to read. Say you're a fan of X and meet another fan of it, how would you proceed to have a rich conversation with that person about X? How are you supposed to enrich your knowledge about it? Keep in mind that it's a story, it's also not created by you but agreed on by you. There are some stories that leave a thing in you but you don't necessarily feel like adding more to it. You choose to recommend that someone reads it directly instead of talking about it, you choose not to discuss the story but rather point at it. But what about the discuss-able ones? I personally have very little experience with those. Anon's recommendation of *Notes From The Underground* was certainly a good one and I personally fail to see how to discuss other than to simply appreciate it. I'm talking about discussing things you appreciate fully, about giving back to them, about having a good grasp of them and so on... Not watching something for the sole purpose of passing time or watching characters be heroes and get what they want.
Thank you for your reply.